Dang!

One of the things that I've learnt throughout the three years I spent in SMA 8 is how important planning and actuating is. Not because everyone is so competent while handling it but because it seems like they're lacking of awareness towards it. It often seem as if most of my friends are not used to working or handling tasks, so they don't know that things don't happen on their own. They tend to think that everything would be taken care of for them, or that a hard task could be finished over night.

Of course we all know it's not like that.

I'm not saying that I'm perfect. I have joined a lot of organizations and extracurricular in high school, and I've made my mistakes as well. But at least I know that in order to achieve things, you have to work for it. Or at least plan it. When I talked to my friends about planning, they would say, "We'd take care of that later" and when the event is a day away, they started panicking about how everything isn't done yet or when things don't go exactly as they have pictured it, but how could it when you don't plan ahead.

Every other year, each class in the 12th grade is given a task to compose a set of rhythmic aerobics. And each class worked their asses off to give their best performance. The thing that I found stupid is that, well, all they did was practice. But they wanted it to be spectacular. And a performance won't be spectacular if it doesn't have the right props or the right scheme.

My friends went on and on about "oh we're gonna use a flag" or oh we're gonna do this or that or blablabla. But when I asked them to sit and talked about it, they said that they're gonna take care of that later. And now, the performance is tomorrow and they just asked me to design a flag that we're gonna use in the closing (they also asked me to design a poster but I didn't want to, I've been mingling with Photoshop until 3 in the morning these past couple of days to design my class's yearbook layout - and again it seemed like they're not aware that layouts don't just pop up in the yearbook without anyone designing them) and they demanded that it will be printed out by tomorrow. Bitch please. I just wanna smack them in their faces when they started becoming so irrationally demanding.

Other than that, this whole senam thing is kind of overrated. My mom thinks it's too much and she doesn't allow me to practice until late afternoons like everyone does. And it's not like I want to. I'm bad at dancing, performing arts was never my niche. I don't want to get involved too much, but I am willing to practice. After all I still need it for my PE score too. But then it made me seem like the most gabut person in the world. Aren't they aware of all the things I have done for them? Like taking care of their damn finances, doing the layouts for their yearbook, getting involved in the production of the jacket that they wear everyday? I guess not, I guess they probably think that everything that I have done aren't significant, or maybe they think the darn jacket just fell down from the sky. It's not like I'm asking them to feel sorry for me, or to respect me or anything, but for this once I wanna be less involved and it made me seem like a bad person.

Oh God, I can barely wait to graduate from high school. Maybe one day I'm gonna miss this class, but right now all I could think about is the day when we would no longer be attached. This doesn't apply for every classmate though.