My scores..........I couldn't find the proper word to describe them. Well, they're horrendous. This has probably been the worst mid test I have ever had throughout my high school years. I've got 4 remedials, and I scored slightly above average on the tests I didn't flunk. I haven't gotten the results on my PE written test, but considering that almost, if not all of the kids in my year failed, I assume I did too. I was one answer away from passing German; but sadly I clumsily filled in the wrong answer because I didn't read the passage correctly. I flunked geography, it was hard, but it's not like the teacher ever came to class to actually teach us anything; one time one of my friends called her because she didn't show up in class when she was supposed to, and it turns out that the old witch just got out of bed. Last but not least, I flunked sociology. I probably should stop right here before I start going into a rampage about my sociology teacher.
Point is, I've never felt so low in my entire life *drrrrrrama* and yet I'm still not motivated to become a tiny bit more ambitious. Gah!!!!!!!!!!
This whole subsi thing is kinda freaking me out as well. First of all, related to Takitri, something happened. But it would be unethical to explain and mention the people involved in it here, so to sum it all up: battle of the after-school courses, which I found pretty silly until I found out that one of the institution gave a huge annual donation to my school. And then there's BT; despite the fact that we've distributed all of our yearbooks and still manage to get a 20million profit from its sales, there's this one tiny problem that hasn't been resolved: ada piutang yang belum tertagih. It's not like it would do us any harm if we don't get our money, but yet my councillor told me to take care of it, even though it's none of my responsibilities. I wasn't supposed to be THIS involved in the first place, my main duty was to make sure that everything worked out according to the initial plans. But then again there's this one super gabut kid and she abandoned her duties so I had to take matters into my own hands. And then I gave this task to another person who was supposed to be in charge of the whole thing but she hasn't done anything I've told her to do, and once again, for a greater good (or so it is), my councillor told me to take matters into my own hands. Why? "Karena kamu yang lebih kuat daripada dia." Errrrr, right.
Moving on to the happy parts.
I'm finally through with this whole Schoolastic crap, thank God!!!!!!!! The event went on with significant difficulties but overall it was a success and we managed to squeeze out a little profit too. I am so glad that this is all over; to finally get a break from Photoshop and having to call publications because I have several lousy partners. I even had to spend Saturday night at the printers because no one was around to take care of the shit. I am so relieved that now I wouldn't have to attend anymore pointless meetings and could finally enjoy some time without any disturbance through my bbm, but then this 10th grader called me yesterday about the committee shirt I had promised for his friends and that..........bugged me, a lot.
I also participate in TarQ Cup's softball tournament with Beavers. They're probably the lousiest team I've ever had, and they could really get to my nerves whenever all they did was stare at an easy grounder without having any intention to block it, but they're also the best thing I ever have in high school. Some people annoy me to death but I'm there to have fun and that's pretty much all I had and did with my teammates, we had fun. I played competitive softball once and it stresses me out. I had to fulfill goals, maintain a good record, and not make a single mistake that would damage my team's chances in winning a tournament. And I lost all the joy I had when I started playing softball. But with Beavers, it's a whole other different thing. We aim to win but our main purpose is to have the time of our lives. And that's when I start to remember why I loved softball in the first place. That satisfaction when you struck out a batter or the exhaustion filled with happiness when you manage to run and score a point for your team. I was (slightly) more relaxed (even though I get real tensed when my teammates commit a stupid error) that I managed to hit balls to the outfield, and that's a huge achievement for me, since I am practically the queen of strike outs. I bumped into a lot of old friends, and I gotta admit sometimes I do miss playing softball in my club and joining real tournaments and such. But that's a chapter that I have chosen to close, there are times when I would want to revisit them, and I really would do so, but life goes on, right?
I wish I could have this kind of outlook towards other aspects of life. To clear off this negativity and have a positive outlook towards the future. But instead I chose to linger, it has always been a habit that I would love to get rid of. If only I had more self control~
Hummm what else? My mom changed my Twitter password, because she thinks I have became addicted to it, and she's right. I am sort of relieved, even though sometimes I open it from the iPad because that's the one device I haven't logged out from. But it's great to finally have a life, it's time for me to worry about my own instead of being so nosy of others.
And I fell in love with Happy Endings. The reason why I watched it in the first place was because of this new Zooey D sitcom called New Girl. One of its cast pulled out of the series because he hadn't expected his other series to be picked up for another season. Anyways this particular 'he' is Damon Wayans Jr., the son of the guy who starred in My Wife and Kids. The pilot (Happy Endings) wasn't too interesting but I grew to love the series as it progressed. I finished the whole first season in 2 days, the second season had just aired recently and I've been streaming it online ever since. It's probably the funniest and most realistic sitcom I've ever seen. And it's the one sitcom that I could actually relate to. I get the humors; they're not unfunny nor overdone, they're just........right.
And I've started my SAT prep course.......with a practice test. Which was hard as hell. I'm starting to have doubts about applying to US colleges, truth is I've been having doubts about pretty much everything in my life.
I guess that's probably all for now, I'm sorry I didn't post any pictures because I'm posting from my iPod (RIP Steve Jobs) since my laptop battery leaked (for the second time) See y'all around!
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